Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Fireflies in the dark


Has been to go silent for a person only one person own the road, a narrow piece of narrow roads, privately, a person feeling their way, fell, got up and move on, move forward ... ... gradually accustomed to the patch of darkness ... ...

Until one day, the dark end of a flashing fluorescent flying fireflies that the very faint light, enough to let me shine. I thought it was take me out of the dark wizard, happy to keep up with it, from its strange my exclusion, to a friendly smile to me, and I found it, decided out of that piece of it, accompanied by dark matter more difficult.

As everyone knows, the same office with me who is so dark, much to release them, freed the prisoners, broke out, squeeze down me, from me tread, are scrambling to chase Nazhi fireflies, only because it is only a firefly here.

So I am unable to support herself up, and they have crazy cheering support the Nazhi Firefly seems to be moving in that direction Chung exports are becoming increasingly farther to go ... ... ... ...

Fluorescence gradually fades a little, finally, that the last trace of the dark spot was relentless squeeze out. Firefly has never returned, I resumed bleak world again, returning to familiar, peace of mind in the dark.

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Monday, August 30, 2010

Is that you? That one lives in the lotus pond profile for

I found you a long time , are also concerned about you for a long time , you have been living in the lotus pond , dragonflies nostalgia with your hair clasp , water kiss your skin , where there are wet mixed with a touch of the lotus lotus leaf , in this Deciduous summer season, Jiao Sheng everywhere quietly falling petals , lotus leaf with a pull toward the surface of the last vestiges of struggle , you are hypocritical in your tail and stretched , looked up a gray sky, heart Thinking : another year of summer will come.

Oh, I think of it, one day I passed a large well-known forest, found there a large group of children dressed in very ornate , they are indeed a child , everyone is kind of like the looks , just the same with first touch Face, they simply imitate the dance moves perfectly out to the extreme , there are such beautiful clothes .I see where they are dancing wildly , wonderful, I shook my head , I am looking for is not here, man , I like to dance is not beautiful , not the nothingness of the show , I'm looking for is a Small demon, She has moved me deeply wonders .

One day , I passed a lotus pond , to see you, then you still fish body , your body has a glittering scales , you are happily swimming in the water , when I first saw you , I know , you will become I've been looking for that person , your body has a rare gas, has shown signs of bud probably know that the beauty of blooming .

Two years later, I again arrived at the lotus pond , the second time I met you, I see you quietly lie above the water, the qin , practice your upper body has become a beautiful woman looks like , eyes pan With a trace of ancient times, women -specific arrogance .You seem to never go out , have been living in their own lotus pond . Do you have a lot of things to do , on cultivation , on survival, on the hunt , you never like nothing I've seen that some of the human , all day complaining about life , complaining that this complaint .

Later, after I got home , lie awake , late at night to get up , made a little rhyme for you :

Dragonfly drunk , Qin tears , Hosta swirling charm

Lotus pond , carp sperm back, the court next month the United States

Then again , I know your name "fish" , I believe that he is fall in love with you, this feeling is wonderful , as if spring came suddenly in front of you . And you have passion for your pond , do not look at me look at you every day in the pool inside the free walk, sometimes I really want to become one around you to see the profile , even if it is your side of a lotus A lotus leaf , I feel your feelings , your emotions , even your every move .

Your hair is getting longer and longer to start winding the Lotus Hogan , nixe you never participate in their meetings, each time , you dressed in a light to clothing in the water swimming , doing your own thing, like This world has nothing to do with you forever , I have always felt that you should not be a part nixe have , you should be a dancing woman ashore .

I firmly believe that human faith is temporary , and fish of the faith , the faith is eternal .

Friday, August 27, 2010

Memory , stranded in the fleeting

More than one second , stop in here like

I discovered that it used to taste

Sweet thoughts , Sese the blame

Reminiscing on the total can not win a race against time

。。。

Then a second , more like a second

Started , remember , and you quarrel

But you do not know it, in my heart

Your shoulders are my strongest dependence

。。。

        I admit , all these years , really changed a lot . The more talkative in front of friends , the more lonely when a person . Learned how to think , learn to repent , learn irrelevant shallow smile , learned broke our hearts in my heart to tears .

I still think he is good , because every morning eyes know what they want , stretch fingers to the sun 's direction , a transparent with both hands like feathers on the wings , ready to take my Soaring to the sky . Sometimes , watching the growth path, along the way, want to go back , holed up in a carefree childhood , but I did not time machine , Liuniansishui no longer . Last year, outside the Diaoyutai State Guesthouse Ginkgo Avenue, stepping on fallen leaves , I took the camera to the far left a lot of his father and dog images, a few seconds , I suddenly felt all the world can still, for our stagnation As long as he does not want to tell those who are mobile creature , we can become the master of the world is short . But, put down the camera to know , to commemorate the years of a camera does not exist a collection of carefully trace the flow of time , each look at one , have recorded the moment when , when and where we are , or cry or laugh , And now we are no longer . Dad in this year's wrinkles be large, committed stomach several times , gone through five years of years of not knowing when to not worry about her daughter when her daughter 's efforts to make him more willing to Jin-Jin Lock Road , is the only pride of his retirement .

It turns out some people , the corner is no longer . I am one of them. I do not know when , I have been afraid of birthdays , I fear the phrase happy birthday have resigned after his farewell yesterday to stride forward light years away , I was afraid I would like to keep the memory of a light to eliminate over time , and I I try to precipitate fear memories will be washed and covered more trivial , there is no room at all . This is life, I fear most is the " habit " word , used to a way of life , accustomed to a person, used to love and be loved , have become so used to more easily become live on the heavy , and then used to The more , the more afraid of losing , even a little bit have been so used to mark .

        Memorial had the fleeting time , going back to the past . Memorial , corner of I , no longer .

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Separated

I was writing some irrelevant text on your
Always listened to me with a deep memory of the song
Describe your appearance in the heart
.
But when the night 's sleep incoming
Turn off the lodge had the memory of the lamp
Closed that the diary has a memory
Stop that first song I recall
I stopped all
Stop the missing
Stop the search
I have forgotten you
Never seems to remember everything about you
Only to re- open them the next day when
The discovery will warp the original I have been a memory for you
.
Have on your word, and then look at
I can not help but ask myself
This is the original you me
Then no longer give their answer
.
The answer is yes , even
I have outlined those memories even existed
So what
It 's you and me who are not now
.
I was buried in the flow in
In memory of the ocean to find you
And you have not been time to bring a flood of my place
.
We missed each other in the world
No longer have each other
This is now you and me
……


When I was lost in one of your sea
May be a beginning
When landing from the clouds
I have not firmly grasp your hand
So we lost in the sea of people
.
When I started looking for you
You may not see the time from discovery
I began searching the sea in one of your shadow
Just too turbulent flow
Even if I found you
Where you can not reach the other shore
.
Then
I can only blur your memory block in the misty
.
.

Monday, August 23, 2010

A glass of water , also drunk

 In the Tanabata that day, I did not even text . Because it is not know what to write . I know , Tanabata does not belong to me . I am just one person, no right for Tanabata . I can do is looking at the bright stars at night , imagine Cowboy met with Weaver in Galaxy , bless them . I also look forward to is the perfect love .

Heard people say that this year is the Cowboy and the Maid of the 886th meet . Cowherd and Weaver Girl is made for each other , for loving the bar . I do not know , do not know if I was not born but for love .

Looking at the street pairs couple , I'm not jealous , but envious . Envious that they can meet, met , love . Tanabata day, I wrote in the diary : on the university, I love a vigorous . Planning a part of my love . I often asked my mother : You worried about my puppy love you . Mom always said: I believe you will.

Yes ah, my mother is so much about me . Thank her for giving me confidence.

Tanabata , still sweet .

Dad gave Mom a bouquet of roses ;

Sister and her boyfriend went to travel ;

Brother, sister in law for the first time to cook .

Nice , right . Although he was a human , but his family is happy enough.

A glass of water , also drunk . Drunk in the Tanabata , drunk in this most romantic season , drunk in their well-being , drunk in a room filled with roses inside .

I want a mind to tell me to suffer the helplessness and resentment


         I do not know why on Baidu, and often lost, often unclear about the Roof Space is stupid to rely on other people search for (can not find too many friends, update too fast can not see) ... World Cup quiz ... now only make up my mind look at the landing, said 10 bet nine others lost, but I have no concept of gambling is not gambling, just for fun, has not lost earn less distressed. I was in line to lose the mentality to play, and lost all will no longer thought to play a ... ... However, the news is that, although the quiz wins or loses, I took the 4000 gold, earned the 8000 gold coins. In short the game go game, not the spirit of this entertainment, the people will calm pool of stagnant water like, not the spirit of no power ... ...

         I often think a lot of things, I kept thinking would be extreme, they are helpless. I pity some people, they hate some people, the poor are incapable of hate but not words. Perhaps it is some people's lives, can only obey only will only bite the bullet. Maybe I'm too serious, that's not bite the bullet, that is life ... ... I hate the one, but I've never not in front of others that he is not good, never thought his good magnification. Because for him the bad, in my heart may be healed, while others may not be able to mind control. Every time outbursts of temper, I always hate it, half dead air of their own, yet not mouth moving effort. As my brother said, when my temper very rebellious, yet still want to let other people they do not speak to read my mind, or their sufferers also have to let other people uncomfortable ... ... I've always thought that ourselves is unreasonable, or not normal, until one day I get angry when I suddenly want to see the original I still love him, but this love hate doping too much ... ...

          If I have nothing, do not want anything, I just want a fold to bitter complaints of my frustration and resentment ... ... from small to large, I'm sure I was missing this, want to have always Debu to ... ...

Nothing to do with love, and lonely affair


Ago Ruirui most frequently said to me one sentence is: I wanted to take it!

      Rui Rui and I are high school students, then we are not strangers, not familiar with. Then space-time switch to South Korea, we get a close up, after all, with their homes, after all, the old knowledge was, after all, in many cases, we need each other. In Korea, the most embarrassed I have a most gloomy day, she accompanied me through all times, so I for her there is another different kind of feeling. I was a big deal and do not like nosy people concerned about their private lives, but all of her complaints, I accept all of her all the confusion, I am answering problem-solving.

      I remember, I lay in bed chatting Ruirui, she Gesanchaiwu the Council said to me: "I wanted to take the" I asked her details, and every time there is a different story ridiculous, such as employees of the store total to A small handsome, a smile makes her Chafanbusi a look, and then later, little handsome guy does not come, so she rejected in love. . . . After she was introduced as someone else, paid a boyfriend. Taking a closer look are not satisfied, however, is still unexplained together, one day, that boy dating wore a white suit and pointed shoes, the dress she hates his life, so boy was she fired She rejected in love. . . Then I moved to Seoul, the computer always has her message: "I wanted to take it!" Then all kinds of weird stories, but also accompanied by a little sad, I can feel it is.

       One day she asked me why she always wanted to take, always not the right person, and then drunk themselves, vomiting, sleep, wake up, or their sick, no one knows, no one feel bad. I front of a screen long silence, knocking over the last few words: "Rui, you lonely." Indeed, her love has nothing to do with love, just having an affair with the lonely, she did not want to love, or too want to love, the devil is lonely, driven by her should not be entered easily into the game.

Before I always thought that a woman's life is love, it is not true

    I am obsessed with girls age Chiung Yao, obsessive fairy princess and the prince, university days, I still continue with the dream girl of the times, confusing the sweet in love with, but is quietly watching and longing are a participant.

      Growing up, I seem to find love, not a woman of all, while a woman is immersed in the love in his life, or to find a good husband as a lifelong goal, that she will miss too much of a better, more Moreover, very often, people are not looking for love, but find an outlet for loneliness.

      Window period for us and our dissatisfaction with the existing love, texting and the other opposite sex, dating, or even a night of passion, not because of love, because we lonely. I was afraid of walking into such a magnificent appearance, which empty the cold castle, so to myself, can be lonely, but can not be absurd, so I desperately code words, hard work, desperate and friends laughing, and then found lonely, vulnerable, family, friendship, interest, bring a sense of achievement at work made me comfortable at ease, I do not have to be enslaved, do not cry for them without any signs of them laugh their troubles. Perhaps some day there will be a true love of the heart is defenseless love into my life, it certainly has nothing to do with and loneliness.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Single woman's fantasy ( outer one )

Single woman's fantasy

Think of myself as a bird
Her heart , has caught the silence
She always wanted to forget some old stories
Lovelorn season, no one
She can translate the lonely heart
Time flow . Fantastic dream
She always want to strive to remember what
But the dream shake off the feathers , words , sand
Fall so far , so far she could not understand :
It missed a past style
Which part of what got stuck in








 
In the yard……
          
In a yard full of gold
I long to meditate . Sleep
Autumn leaves falling piece by piece
Didi blah . Indicators of youth
Escape the Goose . That snow , leaves
Countless voices soon as soon as higher than
Would flood a person's lips
At this time, I dream of a meditation
Wake up . I 's got the horseshoe
The words slipped out of your lips
To say how many striking similarities :
Leaves , the time , was the whisper faded youth scratch
Your palm away the
Is a festival of death

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Want to return to the simple time

Baidu saw recently in a such a vote : " blind, deflowered , unemployment, loss of memory , hearing loss, lost love which would you choose ? . " At first I also think is very interesting , I'll have a go , probably for several seconds, the computer card finally came . Come in , I have a number of regret , I really should not be seen , in fact, my people are timid , afraid of what is choice , so that a few minutes to vote , for me should be regarded as a small Test it!

The first is blind . ~ ~ ~ I most fear is the eyes I had problems there , but do not want to blind ah , although I have been as high as 300 degrees glasses , but I will not give up ! And then sexually abused . ~ this even imagined the amount of immediately PASS! ( The read I Want went wrong was more afraid of ..) THEN unemployment . Well, I heard a very difficult job now , and less job for me, my parents would worry about a couple more years , I would not as " Neets " , grew up in the goal is to find a good job , PASS out why they lose . Not to mention the later hearing , I wish to hear , maybe my eyes can be good, but my ears definitely better than , those blind people , most are used to identify a person's ear The ear is the person's second pair of eyes , so I'd rather not lose how all my ears . . .

Two , is the romance and memory loss . Let me talk about romance, probably because Anhai no love , no BOY FRIEND, so the concept is still vague , with little thought about this sort of thing , on the emotions seen very light . But I know , like a person 's taste is very important , not so casual abandonment , the feeling is intriguing romance would cause great harm to some people , I am a coward , a little scared. Therefore, I have chosen amnesia . Allow me to elaborate my point of view :

I know that memory loss may keep the mind will all forget things , even ruthless happy I would forget him , how I wish now I had a machine to clean a head clean, the share of the already Are simply re- load my my mind , even though I know not a possibility. Very young feel to be a simple girl really simple , but the accumulation over time , and I do not think so gradually , and a simple girl from the bottom of my heart now must Dazhaodenglong , by sunlight is difficult to Looked . If God really allow me to have a choice, I would choose amnesia , let me forget all the re- do a simple girl .

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Sometimes , we must be willing to invest in the emotional


Nana is the unit 's staff , resigned in early .

To tell the truth , because she is at the time of the day the office is not that boring . We often interest the big time, staging a show of brilliant . Outside of work , they do add a lot of fun . Since she left, the day it was boring .

I have two years her junior , has been single . Resignation , also launched her matchmaking friends and family . The Ins and Outs also see many , Leng Shimei to have a look on the eye . Have the means to good , she took a two do not call people to send out a .

Feeling this , and insist not . Since people did not intended on, we do not have to say . After all, young, youth is the capital .

Can be just from the looks point of view, her normal , ordinary , nothing extra .

But people familiar with her know that her charm is not really light . Hardcore fans around , all over the country , but are not difficult to manufacture some of the difficulties children have to help get iron buddy .

Precisely , after the resignation of a man traveling the world to go to Beijing , Tianjin, Hangzhou ran a walk in a circle . And all the places , vehicle for vehicles to take , keep food to accompany drinks to accompany play , tear at the moment .

Saying her irons brothers , also customers are our unit , and those who are successful business field . And customer relationships can be maintained so well , do not generally .

Relations in the past , and making sarcastic comments also came, saying that they have ulterior motives for her , up to no good , etc. , a series of colored words swept in , and made her look of innocence , often come to me complain .

But she is also a reasonable person , at most, made two complaints that he who , well aware of , not with the fuss .

Two days before a phone call outside, Happy days , just back to Zhengzhou . Have not seen for half a year , do not know this girl has not changed .

About Zijingshan meet . 1 and it's come to a hug , a warm incredible . Food shopping to chat , but this trip , such as being brainwashed , each issue makes no reference to the conversation revolved around work . Also play a slogan , 20 -year-old , not to fall in love . Bent only on our own cause. But also single women who come to the conclusion a good start .

The following reasons: free , no family constraints , dry wanted to do their own thing . Can be granted to accept the help of friends . And around these ready-made network of contacts can help her . They do not pay tuition , why not do it . Have their own business , and will have no trouble find a good husband .

With reason . However, the materialistic society, between people , to very few pure form of friendship . Moreover, they are nothing less than a businessman , wishful thinking than anyone else played fine , do not see no future benefit and or things , they often will not invest . Do you have any confidence that they will always be selflessly to help you in the end ?

Friends of the original words : business eyes, interests above all else , but the merchants are also human beings , flesh and blood , and feeling . I say let them make a lot of money , but later voted in emotional point of information . Xinyangmaojian while ago just down, I gave them all send some new tea, spent nearly more than 700 ocean . They appreciate what I had time .

I monsters Dawu , the answer has finally opened . Will afford from the start , who is her ulterior motives .

Chinese sense of obligation about friendship . Especially businessmen , honesty . Business court case, usually with people also do so. Apply the old saying : Take short of manpower , man-eating mouth short . Because人情债most difficult yet .

But sometimes , indeed must be willing to invest in emotionally . As the saying goes : not bear a child sets not live wolves , and today I learned a trick .